Survivor's guilt is most often the crippling part of grief. What could I have done different? If only I'd done this, if only I had done that, then maybe I could have saved him. These thoughts, no matter what I do, always slip into my mind. It is a daily battle within myself, the only reassurance that keeps me functioning is knowing that GOD's WILL shall AlWAYS be done. I take heart in the fact that GOD has a plan for my life and that of my children's lives. THAT is what helps me sleep at night and wake in the morning....well, that and maybe some Nyquil or Benadryl as a quick fix. LOL.
I am a survivor.
I hope and pray that your blog will be the "how to book" for others in need facing the same road you are traveling. It will also become a testimony to others of how God can guide them in their everyday life...It has been almost a year now and we miss Jeremy. You and the kids are in our family's prayers.
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